trumpet solos
13 January 2010, 9:24 a.m.
sometimes, when life is going well, you have to wonder why it is. you ask yourself why you deserve such great times, and why you shouldn't have any major problems or setbacks. i wonder why i'm so fortunate at times as to not have to go through so many things like so many other people i know. it's interesting to see how it's almost at random, and you realize that it could happen to you at anytime but for this brief moment you are saved the trouble and the difficulty. i feel like these times are used to save up your strength to fight the storm when it finally does come your way.
i keep having weird dreams. it's funny because they are things i want to happen, and in my dreams they do. when i wake up though its not true, and i come to a harsh realization of it. oh well. i feel like these things will eventually happen though. crossing my fingers.
dating is meh. all i want is a girl who's damn funny and can make me laugh too. i feel weird when i make jokes and the girl won't make them back. sounds weird i know, but it's something that i need. right now though i'm not even looking too hard for a someone. just kinda hanging out with the ones i know. i need to branch out and meet new people, but i can't seem to get up the strength and courage to do so. stupid. i want a girl to just come up and meet me. i want her to do all the work in that department. haha.
OR..... i just want that which i've had before, that was awesome and it fell apart.....